A Hole in my Heart, Death, and Cancer.

On Sunday July 10, 2011, my aunt lost her battle with cancer and is in God's presence. She passed away in her sleep with her family surrounding her. I wish I could have been there when she passed. Yet I find solace in the fact that I last saw her in April and said my good-byes. I talked to her at least once a week and told her how much I loved her. We talked about my son, the weather, or what we had for dinner. I sent her a card in early July with recent pictures of my son.

I must admit that I am going through the morning phases: shock, anger, sadness, and peace. I knew she was dying but deep down I wanted to believe in miracles. The anger I had was at both the world and at times God. Mad at cancer it self, why there was no cure, and why God created cancer in the first place. Mad at why evil people in the world live long healthy lives and my aunt a school teacher suffered so greatly.

My heart is at peace yet it is still hurting. I find peace knowing that she is suffering no more and is in God's kingdom. She will be my angel and watch over my family.

I LOVE you eternally Anna and miss you so much my heart aches. I will never forget you because you have left a Everlasting mark in my heart!!!

I will be taking the week off from blogging to be with my family.